My Mind

Raging turmoil,
A rushing torrent
Fighting the current
Powerful forces
Pushing me back

A

Sustained today, by thoughts of you.

The living, breathing form, unattainable

But whole in my mind

Vivid, solid, real

One day to hold you

Feel you soft in my arms

Chest rising and falling hypnotically

With each breath, alive

Touch electrifying

Voice mesmerizing

Each moment greater

Than the one preceding

Concrete and Water

Keep thinking its better for everyone if I would disappear, find a nice mountain stream, live in a tent.....just be gone, where no one would find me.

Unseen Smile

Faux smile
Shown to her
The real one
Only for you
Hidden under a mask
Brought out
By thoughts of you
Yet
You can't see it

Essential

You've become air
Necessary to sustain life
Merely knowing your existence
Allows me to survive
But breathing you in
With every word you send
Fuels me, fires me
Filling my lungs
With you
Essential

Impossible Choice

An impossible choice
Needs to be made
Total satisfaction unattainable
Someone hurt
No matter the decision
Unable to make all happy
Myself an afterthought
Inconsequential
The equation....incorrect

Today

I cried today
The weight of all
Crashing into me
A wave, a raging storm
Your absence magnified
By all the choices
To be made
Happiness as fleeting
As a summer squall