Map and Compass

Always have I been able to find my way
Whether in the hushed silence of the woods
Or the cacophonous hustle and bustle of the city
Even on lifes twisty path, I've known my direction
But now tthat compass is off, its declination incorrect
Lost, overwhelmed at times, and confusion rampant
But yet I tarry on, searching for the answers
The embarkation point of what is next, what is to be
Holding on tightly to positivity, breathing deep
I know i'm not alone, I know good things keep me
So the map and compass will be tossed to the wind
Eventually the way will found, taken, and on

Emerging

Once again emerging from her chrysalis
Ever evolving into what she needs to be
She is a butterfly in the truest sense
Beautiful and lively as she becomes
Watching all her transformations is
Pure joy and a sight to behold always

Intimacy

It's been around a year now
Though I don't know the exact moment
Of Our beginning
Seems like no time at all
I miss what we had
The knowing of what lies deep
Within you
The intimacy shared and feelings felt
And while we may never return to that
I'm joyous in what we've become
Thankful I've been kept in your life
Friends when we need that shoulder
Friends to share in the great moments
Of each others lives

Lost

I'm not worthy anymore I guess
Others are better suited or just better
I had hoped to make you happy
Or at least as happy as I could
But it's not to be anymore
Wish I knew what I did wrong
Or what about me went from good
To so bad that I'm cast aside
I'll likely never know, always wonder
I just wish what I felt was reciprocated
That I had some return
To what once was but possibly
Never will be again

Acute

Acutely aware at this moment
Like a needle pricking my skin
Of what I'm missing in my life
But also what I have in it
Like two sides of the same coin
Needing to coexist even though
I only wish they could be apart
The missing pieces completed
So I must work even harder
To ensure what's not missing
Is cherished to the utmost

Gratitude

This is not really new ground covered
Nor new words more eloquently spoken
But I find myself again needing to express
Gratitude of immense proportions towards you
For all the changes you've been a catalyst for
And also a major, massive part of creating
For all my ups and downs and tribulations
For sticking by me through all our transitions
Becoming the type of friend I've rarely had
But mostly, for just being yourself and true
Smiling, inspiring, loving, compassionate
Yet when need be strong and unforgiving
So thank you for being in my life.

Exhaustion

Exhaustion gripping tight
Fingers holding, squeezing
The physical felt deep inside
My bones like heavy lead
Their gravity pulling me down
The mental making cloudy
My brain unable to process
As if a computer missing a chip
An easing is needed, coming
Making the best of what I can
What I've learned from you
All will pass, become good again

Please

I make mistakes
More than I'd like
And I hate this new
As I have the few before
Don't let it get in the way
Of what we have now
This friendship that sustains
Me, inspires me, and I hope
Does the same for you
Please forgive, please continue
Being a true hearted friend
And a confidant, an inspiration

Marietta

Sun and scudding clouds reflected
On the rivers seemingly calm surface
An old paddle boat making minute ripples
The cool breeze off the water refreshes
As I walk, mind clear for once in days
Only the moment existing, real, tangible
The future can wait, not its time yet
The past, memories only, though some great
For now its about...this.

Support

My heart feels for you tonight
Knowing all I can do is be there
In case you need me, in case you hurt
While this experience may not be close
It's saddening nonetheless, tragic
Always am I there for you to reach out
Always will support and understand
No matter the sadness or happiness
Of what you need to talk about

Leaf

Still, in those moments
Just before sleep takes me
Does your face rise into being
Memory of you surfacing
Like a torrent caught leaf

Bright and Shining

Bright smiles shining

The light of the world

Contained in them

Vivid, full of laughter

Luminous and warm

Showing your true nature

Somedays.....

By You

Inspired at every turn by you
By your perseverance and strength
By your smile and laugh
By your motivation and sincerity
By your spirit and heart
By memories of our moments
By your example and style
Each day I find something new
Inspired by you

The Thread

Sometimes that merest whisp of thread
Is enough to keep you hanging on
Whether it be a memory made that's cherished
A hope for something to come you hold close
Or this moment, right now as you read
Whatever it may be for you in your life
It is strong enough despite the overwhelming sense
Of inherent fragility and inimitable futility
It is enough to keep you hanging on to your life
To keep you looking closely at the good
The joy, the happiness, the beauty

Paramount

I find myself smiling, laughing
Remembering that day in May
The sun and wine and good food
Conversation of incomparable quality
Your smiling eyes and laughing lilt
But more importantly I find myself
Rooting for you, cheering you on
For all I feel of us and all I want
What I'm hoping for in the grandest way
Is a continuation of your bright smile
For your life and heart to carry on
Being all you want and being who you are
Happiness paramount, our inspiration

Reclamation

Reclaiming slowly over the past many months
That which I thought was lost, possibly forever
Confidence, health, ability to feel, to love
Regaining as well the creativity that once reigned
Little by little it has all come trickling back
Still much to do, to grow but heading now
In the right direction with a purpose, momentum
Thank you, the catalyst for all, thank you

Anew

At times lamenting
Of divergent paths
And unmet potential
But remembering
Each day begins
Anew, fresh, and clear
One of the many things
Learned in a few months
From you, from others
Your positive influence
Bringing more to me
Than I've ever had