Defining

No definition written can adequately explain
No adjective in any language could describe
How my heart longs for yours and beats
Each resounding cadence with the need
Of souls interwoven and true feelings shared
Unwavering, steadfast, and deeply profound
Accepting of what is and happiness discovered

Catch Myself

Always, the last thought as I drift off
Always, the first as I slowly rouse awake
But the best, are those moments sprinkled
Throughout each day, good or bad
When I catch myself smiling for no reason
And realize, something reminded me of you
A song, a word, an image, or just
A memory briefly resurfacing
That's when I know, heart and soul

Shelter (3/29/14)

Sensing
The unknown like storm clouds gathering
Horizon dark and opaque with their menace
Feeling
The pressure dropping, closing in quickly
As the tempest rages closer and closer
Hoping
You are the shelter I seek and that
The damage can be undone

A Dream

Day gently awakens
Sun a helium filled
Balloon slipping quietly
Above the horizon
Floating between
Steel grey clouds
Dreams of you
Fresh in my memory
Lovely smile playing
Across your face as I
Brush a stray strand
Auburn and soft
From your face
Voice alight on my ears
Laughing, whispering
Making known
Your heart

Shared

Amazes how with only words
And brief conversations in voice
I feel, with every beat of my heart
The truth in how you feel, the depth
With unwavering reciprocation
I stand by you, stand with you
Knowing as I take a breath that
Our connection grows in many ways
Though we both struggle inside
We are supported by our shared strength
Made whole by our shared understanding

The Mountain

Inner turmoil raging inside us both
The rapid, rushing torrent of a
Boulder strewn mountain stream
Swollen from the spring snow melt
Feelings deep as that mountainous valley
Inseparable from the reality that is
Yet unable to be denied to either
So we do what the mountain does
Patient, taking what comes and
Enjoying each perfect moment available

Reasons

Simply
Thinking of you
Your smile
Laugh, intelligence
Grace, beauty
Style, heart, soul
Kindness, compassion
Strength and courage
Reasons you deserve my love

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To brush your cheek
Soft, smooth, with
The tips of my fingers
As only to say goodnight
Sleep well my sweet

Haiku For My Butterfly

Golden pale sun shines
Your smile radiating
Even more lovely

A Vivid Dream

A dream, vivid, real
Like a film shot
In high definition
Your smiling eyes
As you laugh
Slightly drunk
On good wine
And good company
Your hand softly
Holding mine
Rough and velvet
Intertwined as
Your musical laughter
Careens into my head
Lifting me up to
Sheer happiness

Apology

I couldn't feel more like an ass right now if I tried. I will use every medium I have to try an apologize and pray and hope that things will be okay. It's been a tense few days but I know it can be overcome. I seem to be putting each foot wrong but it will be okay. An gra mo chroi.

Your Own

When your day goes awry
And not as planned
When your buoyant positivity
Begins to flag and wane
You'll always have me there
To lift you up,to brighten, and
To vent and rage if necessary
To be your sounding board
To simply...listen.
I am your own

Broadcast

Heart calling out wistfully
Letting its feelings known
A broadcast of hope, love
But the wavelength is only
For you to hear, to see
To sense, know, and feel
Assuaging the desire for more
With the visions and memories
Of what we share each day

Sweet Sleep

Some nights the sleep does not come easy
My only wish to dream of your smile
How it lights up my day, my heart
To see you in my sleep as if you were
Within a hairs breadth of distance
Your breath warm on my skin
Your hair fragrant, sweet as it
Tickles and pulling you closer
So you feel the beat of my heart
With yours

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When you can't read my body language
See the sincerity in my hazel eyes
Hear the timbre of my voice to know
Truly how I feel, that's when I work harder
So there is no doubt left between us

Your Words

I may have written the words
But you created them
Graceful spirit infusing
Each one with the beauty
You posess inside

Scorching

Want to drink you in
Cool draft of water
After working in the
Searing sultry sun
Quenching the desire
The yearning and need
For your mind and soul
Intimate knowing of
All that's behind your
Soul scorching eyes

Morning

Early morning stillness refreshing
In its inimitable solitude and quiet
Mug warming my hand as the aroma
Wafts up to enliven my senses
Yearning to have you beside
Languidly stretching as you wake
Smooth, fragrant skin sliding across my leg
As you burrow in to the crook of my arm
Enjoying those final moments of sleep.

You See Me

You see me
Like no one ever has
Not the mask I use
To hide from the world
Nor the semi transparency
Of what my friends know
But me, real, undefined
The me that is everything
I have ever been and the me
That has potential to be
Everything that is good
You see me

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At your pace we'll go, unhurried
Unfettered by any rules but your own
Made to be broken, changed or altered
Taking my cues from your words
Your body language as they speak to me
Our connection fueled by our hearts
Kept safe by caution, growing by deeds

To Know

I'll be the keeper of your secrets
Safe and guarded for all time
I'll be the writer of your story
Made eloquent by your actions
I'll be the tender of your heart
Helping it grow more lovely
I'll be the painter of your picture
Brushstrokes no match for your beauty
I'll be the rejuvenater of your soul
A cool drink on a scorching day
I'll be, always

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Strange combination
Deep yearning for more
Yet calmly satisfied
With what we have
Hearts entwined

Undaunted

Collision of unexpected events have led us
To this close proximity of words and looks
A meteor devastatingly crashing and leaving
Behind all of itself, embedded deeply, permanently
Into the earth, so now are we intertwined in
Our thoughts of each other and our desires
Sweet agony invading of the distance, circumstance,
And time that conspire to keep us apart, yet
We steadfastly hold and remain undaunted
From sharing the joy, the moments available to us
And confidants we have become, friends, connected
Knowing that each is more complete with what is
Than if it were to fall away into some unknown
Gone, irretrievable, and lost in some hidden space
So I cherish each microsecond on my clock ticking
That includes you, and I strive to make known with
Words both written and spoken that I am here
For you, with you and as you need me to be

Short Story in Black and White

Wrong

Each second that passes
Every minute that flys by
Each hour sprinting past
Every day rushing forward
I think we can love no deeper
Then, in a flash of words
I'm proven wrong and
I rejoice to know you

Unfolding

Watching your day
Unfold in pixels
Ecstatic eyes twinkling
Brings me joy and lightness
Seeing the stress built
Dissolve like sugar
Stirred into iced tea
Knowing you're refreshing
Your mind, body, and soul
Exquisite

Branded

The intensity of your beauty
Burns through me like a torch
Searing, lighting up my soul
Radiant smile a white hot brand
Marking me, making me yours

Soon

Palm of my hand tracing
The curve of your hip
Eyes locked with desire
Lips closing near to each
Anticipation of the first
Touch and softness
Unbearably delicious
Soon

Finding You

Reminded today of your smile
Bright and warm as the sun
Crept lazily slow over the rivers
Silvery, becalmed horizon
Of your sparkling eyes
While I watched the stars
Twinkling in the twilight sky
With mirth and life and mischief
Of your razor sharp wit
And the laughter that follows
As the cold wind cut across
The street on which I walked
Finding you in the every day beauty
Of which you're a part

Tempest

Snow silently drifting down
Flakes, enormous and soft
A hushed blanket covering
The heavy silence cause
For reflection and thought
Memories, moments, visions
Of what we shared, embraced
In this wintry tempest
Warming me

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Inexplicably
Unequivocally
Ecstatically
Beautifully
Yours

Brilliance Exploding

Not every day is easy
Struggling to make it through
Conscious effort to rise above
The minutiae that drags
Then out of the depths of my mind
A memory will surface
Your smile, your laugh
A conversation that I didn't want to end
All collide in a brilliant explosion
Instantly a smile creases my face
Knowing that you are with me

Welcome

If you find yourself reading this blog by accident, thanks for stopping by and I hope you enjoy. If you find yourself here on purpose I still thank you for allowing me to share with you. I don't write for anyone but myself , however, I've found inspiration and am very happy. Please enjoy or not, does ne matter. I'll write and write some more whether good or bad. More importantly I hope to continue to be inspired and for that, spasiba babochka.

Time

Six months....
At times it feels a lifetime
Has passed by
And others
But the briefest of flashes
As we talk
Growing closer
Through the ups and downs
The moments missed
More importantly
The moments we get to
Drink in
Reveling in each
As day by day my heart
Sores to know you

More Than A Glimpse

Rarely in life do we get a glimpse
Into the depths of someone's soul
Heart, feelings, and very character
Then unexpectedly you're allowed
To see not just a small part of these
But deep down, an oceans trench
To the bottom of their entire being
And you're in awe as if exposed
For the first time to the wonders
Of this world, in all their glory
Thankful of more than just a glimpse

Sun Rises

Sun rising this morning
Rising on my contentment
The knowledge of this love
Easing the days that are
Troubled and gray and low
Yearning for more of course
But knowing our lives are
Fuller and brighter as we
Speak and listen and know
The heart and soul of each
Sun rising

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Smile forever playing
Imperceptibly across my face
Behind it thoughts of you

A Beautiful Girl (Reimagined)

Piercing spheres changing color
Blue, grey, green
Auburn tresses framing
Luminous smile
That is her

Reality

Plaintively I lay my head down each night
Hoping that in the darkness as sleep dawns
I dream, see your face, hear your voice
In the brief moments before the sun rises
We live a lifetime of lovely memories
Yet knowing when I do deign to wake
You'll be there in soul and in spirit
That my day will not be without you
But full of you, full of your words
Full of your eyes and smile and wit
And real memories created and lived
Shared this time in what has become
Our reality.

The Heavens

A brand new sky hovers above
Tantalizingly out of reach
Ethereal beauty whispering
Her eyes the lovely points
Of its stars and her smile
The brightly shining sun
And in the moons place
Her soul, silvery brilliant
Shown to those that deserve

Sustained

Sustained
Each movement of your expressive face
That resides in the recesses of my mind
Nourishing the want, need, desire for you
Sustained
The music that is your voice resounds
Reaches out to every part of my being
These memories forming a kaleidoscope
Sustained

Heart and Soul

The day runs long, interminable
Frustration mounts, incessant
Positivity begins to wane, sadly
Need only look at you
Captured in pixels yet real
Smile easing my heart
Erasing the frustration
Eyes speaking to me
Wordless but encouraging
My soul soaring

Torture

Letting go
Even for that brief moment
Torture

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A jigsaw puzzle with one piece
Forgotten under a well worn cushion
A road winding to incompletion
Stopped miles from its destination
That favorite recipe missing a secret
Ingredient needed to make whole
All these were once me, missing
Something that I didn't know
Now found, now made whole

Words Spoken, Words Unspoken

The conversations roll
A juggernaut of words
Unstoppable, frenetic
The depths of your mind
Amazing me more with
Each letter typed, each
Word spoken aloud, each
Facial expression discovered
Exploring the crennelations
And fathoms of what lies
Behind your fiery eyes
As if it were my rough hands
Exploring each inch of your body

The Gift

The smile that you gave me fits
Better than any finely tailored
Saville Row suit, exquisite, bespoke
Even when it can't be seen
It is there, hidden away like
A precious treasure that needs
Protected and cherished and savored
But I love best the times when
It's on display for you.

Respect

Sometimes love is about beauty
Sometimes its about personality
Sometimes chemistry plays a role
Sometimes the sound of laughter
Sometimes purely the passion
And sometimes just sometimes
It is all of these combined with
Respect


Respect for their beliefs, passions
And ideals.

Pennies

Outside, grey, rain crashing
As if a million pennies thrown
From a skyscrapers top
But my thoughts don't match
The steely gloominess out
They're bright, redolent with
The good things I have around,
You, friends, family, enjoyment
Of memories, moments shared
These keep the pennies away

Late Night Thoughts

Your soul sparkles
Shines with a force
Greater than every
Bright point in
The heavens above
Your heart sings
Calling to all who
Know you and exist
In your sphere
Lives better for it
Your mind radiant
Like a torch on fire
Helping, caring, touching
The very depths of
The world around you

Butterfly

Compassion and kindness laced
With an effervescent strength
Intelligence and wit combined
With an eloquent toughness
Grace and beauty suffused
With heart and soul and care
She's emerged from the cocoon
Of anonymity, into my heart.