Wall

The wall just appears
Suddenly, dark of night
As if stone masons by stealth
Came into my life and it sprang
Stone by rough hewn stone
Around every part of me
Blocking what confidence remained
Every past doubt and pain
Slamming into it and exploding
Into trillions of pieces and more
Magnifying themselves a thousand fold
If only to break it down
Tearing it apart piece by piece
Maybe soon a return to normal

Wandering

My heart was not made for this non life
My head not created to be stagnant
I want to feel, to love, to know
Wandering about without knowing
Yet not lost. Exactly where I'm meant
Blooms of dust curling behind my boots
As I traverse the dry trail, incline
Straining my muscles as I move on
Or the sloshing of mud and water
Verdant trail around me enclosing
New languages, new food, new culture
Only the pursuit of the adventure
That is what I want to know
No decisions regretted, each made
With the clearest of hearts and minds
Nevertheless, to wander again

Headlights

You can't sleep, restless
So you watch the shadows
From the swiftly passing cars
Headlights, dance on the walls
Like dilapidated shadow puppets
Mind playing over and over
Years of being barely a footnote
Of desperately trying to claw
Your way to some semblance
Of not being alone, of being wanted
But each quick shadow fading
Leaving more darkness
And the abject desire for sleep
Dreamless and blissful