I don't know if you will come here looking or intentionally stay away, if what I write will help or if my words only make things worse but I have trouble doing nothing. I've hurt you and I can't change that but I've never stopped feeling the way I feel and won't ever. There are only 3 parts of my life that are irreplaceable and you are one. Anything else is meaningless. I didn't realize that I was doing anything different which hurts me more than you know. I've cried today for the 1st time in ages. I say this not for pity or sympathy but simply so you know what my life is like without you in it. My day is brighter with each word you say.